Voting Day!!!

Sorry everyone but I'm releasing my Presidential choice. This is because I'm tired of people telling I should or shouldn't vote for my candidate. Everyone has their opinions and just sometimes people should keep them to themselves. We should be happy that we love in a great democratic country where we have voting rights!! I fell blessed to live in the United States! ❤

So Your Life Sucks?

I'm fucking SICK of posts all over Facebook about how people's lives suck! You don't know what sucks is!! Here's a sucky fucking life....

1. BOTH of my parents are dead.
2. I was physically abused for 9 years and can't sleep. Mentally abused for about 12.
3. I have diabetes.
4. I have diabetic neuropathy.
5. I have diabetic kidney disease.
6. I have to eat vegan for medical reasons.
7. I was badly sick and in severe pain for 5-6 weeks because of my gallbladder.
8. I had my gallbladder removed now my digestive system acts up.
9. My 13 year old daughter is lactose intolerant and might have Celiac disease. She has to eat a lactose free AND gluten free diet. Shit man try grocery shopping for that shit!
10. I jacked my toe up severely. Might need surgery on a tendon if it doesn't heal.
11. I have lesions on my liver that have to be addressed! So I might end up on more meds and need a liver biopsy.

Now you tell me just how bad your life really fucking sucks! Unless you have a death to face or a serious disease, you can fix your sucky ass life and go to Hell!

Rock of Ages Movie Review

This is a must see for all fans of the 1987 hair bands! The movie is set in L. A. 1987. Great acting and actors. The soundtrack is fantastic. Tom Cruise can actually sing! I was very surprised at his ability to sing Def Leopard's "Pour Some Sugar on Me." With an all star cast with Tom Cruise, Alec Baldwin, Julianne Hough, Russell Brand, Catherine Zeta-Jones, and Diego Boneta, there's plenty of laughter and great singing/music abound!

Battleship Movie Review

Finally watched Battleship. I don't know why the critics have to give every scifi movie a bad rap. I thought the movie was fun and engaging. I do wish Liam Neeson would have had a bigger role. Taylor Kitch was pretty good. Loved seeing the vets with disabilities doing their physical therapy! To see those men without legs run on prosthetics brought tears my eyes.

The aliens were pretty cool and you get to see quite a few times. Amazing special effects and graphics. Loved the game of Battleship played on the ocean! This is one I will be adding to my collection.

Overlook the critics ratings for this one.

The Walking Dead

While down from gallbladder surgery, I got addicted to the Walking Dead! I am not normally a zombie fan, I am a vampire kind of girl, this is different. The acting is amazing and the visuals are pretty intense. I watched all 19 episodes of season 1 &2 in just 2 1/2 days! I am now obsessed.

I finished both seasons just in time to see the premier of season 3! Man was it sickening!! Complete gorefest with lots of zombie killing! Maybe more than all of season 2 combined xD Carl is becoming a man so fast! I will not post any spoilers on here as some of my friends have not seen the season 3 premier. So if you have questions you will have to email me, send a private message, or message me on Facebook, or even a direct message on Twitter.

Season 3 is off to a great start! I have also started to read the comics xD. I am only on issue 2 but I am sure I will have read them all within a few weeks. If you are interested in digital copies, there is a Walking Dead comic app available through iTunes that is fantastic! Or if you are on a Kindle Fire, you can download the comics app for them. If you have them on your computer and wish to read them on a Kindle Fire, there is an app available through the Amazon App Store that is $2.99. I bought the app and its worth it! It is called Comicat. Reading them on my Kindle is a breeze. I just put it in landscape mode and read away! If you are using the Walking Dead comic app on your iPhone or iPod then its a frame by frame view instead of the entire page.

Happy viewing and happy reading!! xD

Apple iOS 6

So I upgraded my 4th generation iPod touch to the new iOS software. While yes I love it, I also think it can be a pain. The app store quite often closes when I try to download an app or search for one. One of the games that I was playing no longer works on the new operating system. I have not checked out the maps but from I hear Apple Maps sucks. I say just get a damn Garmin or Tom Tom shit! That is what a GPS is for. Besides you can get a Garmin in Walmart for $89 plus tax with lifetime maps. I will be getting that SOON. Cheaper to buy a new one than upgrading the maps on mine.

Anyways, back to iOS 6. I really like the new feature that I can now share photos directly to Facebook and Twitter. So much easier! You can now also create photo albums on your iPod or iPhone which makes sorting my Instagram and wallpapers easy. With the iPod touch you can now send messages to iPhone users and share pictures. However, very rarely do my pictures send without an error. I have given up on sending pics to my daughter's iPod and my friends iPhone! Hopefully the bugs will be taken care of with the next update. Every day I have new app updates so the apps are coming up to speed for the iPhone 5 and the new iOS 6 operating system. One thing you will notice that goes missing when you upgrade to iOS 6 is that your YouTube will be POOF, no longer there! Don't sweat it! The app has been redone and is fantastic! I love the new YouTube app.

I can NOT speak for iPhone users. Only iPod touch. I have seen a television commercial out with a new 5th generation iPod touch. Looks pretty sleek and amazing but as far as I am concerned, that might be the only difference, is that it comes in colors now like the Nano. I am in NO rush to hurry and get an iPod 5. I paid $300 for the one I have now and its less than a year old. No need for a new one just yet. Maybe in a year when the kinks are out.

Two Weeks Post-op

Well well well! I am finally not sick anymore! Makes me happy. Three ER visits, three visits to my doctor, one trip to the GI specialist and then to surgeon. I had a CT scan of my pancreas, liver, gallbladder, and kidneys. I then had two ultrasounds. Still nothing was showing. Then came the third ultrasound, JACKPOT! Showed "several non-shadowing gallstones" and lesions on my liver. It was simple gallstones so I had to have my gallbladder removed.

People told me that I would be fine like 3 days after surgery! EFFING LIARS! Ugh. I was down for two weeks. I could barely get our of bed the first week. I was given Tramadol for pain, JOKE. It was a long two week recovery process. I feel so much better now and I am thankful for that surgery! He was a good surgeon and I have a great doctor!

During my time in bed I became overly addictive to THE WALKING DEAD! I LOVE it!! xD I was too taken with the season 1, episode 1 because it was slow to start. Thanks to my son Taylor and my best friend Julie, they encouraged me to stick with it and just watch. By season 1, episode 3 I was addicted! I am now reading the comic books. I am on Issue 2. I was not a zombie person or a comic book reader until this show! Thanks to AMC, the creators, and the writers for bring The Walking Dead to television!

For all you Walking Dead fans, I have attached a photo for your Facebook cover photo that you can use! I use it xD So bloody! ENJOY!

Gallbladder Surgery!

I went to the hospital for the 3rd time in 2 weeks for this pain, nausea and vomiting. After taking x rays and an ultrasound, low and behold the gallstones finally made their debut! I knew I wasn't crazy. I met with my surgeon today. My gallbladder will be removed on Monday :) FINALLY!

Money or Love?

Would you choose money over love? My ex chose my money over me. What a way to make me feel LIVID. If you love someone you work through money because it all eventually falls into place. I guess I'm not as important to him as he was to me. His loss because I know who I am! He shall go through life cursed because he lives materialistic. One who knows no love knows sadness and pain. 

Gallbladder Surgery?

Saw my primary physician today. She said because of the pain and vomiting I would most likely need my gallbladder removed. She is referring me to a GI specialist first so they can scope out my insides. After that a trip to the surgeon. I will be so happy not to be sick anymore.

On a flip note, my bf dumped me because he's moving. How fucking lame. He chose money over love.

Shitty Week....

Well this has been one shitty week. I just *sigh*. I have been sick for two weeks now. Two trips to the ER and one to my doctor in the last week! I have been in such horrendous pain with nausea and vomiting. This is apparently caused from gallbladder spasms. Even with all the pain and puking, the ER doc didn't find it necessary to remove my gallbladder. I am SICK of being sick! I can't stay awake because when the nausea comes on I have to take Phenegren that was prescribed. This stops the vomiting but I still feel queasy. At least they did prescribe Vicodin for the pain. I only take that when I REALLY need it. I will call my doctor tomorrow and get in to see her again. Maybe she can refer me to a gastro doctor that will help with my gallbladder. 

The other thing that's been going on this week is that my boyfriend dumped me straight out of the blue. I didn't even see it coming. Is he really that mean of a person? I guess so. He just flat out didn't return phone calls or texts for like 2 days. I am such a good person so I don't know what happened. I am walking around with a WTF look on my face for a week now. I sent him a Facebook message to wish him a happy birthday and I didn't even get a thank you back. WTF did I do that was so wrong he can't tell me? One major thing we don't disagree on is children. I am 39 years old and have three kids already. They are 19, 16, and 13. I have been raising kids for almost 20 years. And with my medical problems, it would not be a good thing to have another one. Put the medical problems aside, what about my education? I am now in a masters program for psychology specializing in health psychology, a child would make that graduation in 1 1/2 years nearly impossible. And I told him the night we met that I did not and would not have any more children. He seemed ok with that when we met. I also think the reason he split is because I have been so sick. He is a person that doesn't believe in the use of medications. But I cannot help it! I have diabetes, kidney disease, and neuropathy. So no meds is not working for me. 

So I think I am just going to stay single forever. They say there is someone for everyone but I have yet to find that someone in 20 years! In almost 40 I still cannot figure out the meaning of life/ For me the meaning is just paying bills and barely scraping by, and doing it all by myself. I think I am a STRONG woman to have to deal with what life has given me all by myself! NO one is going to take care or help me but ME. Long story short, depend on no one but yourself. Life is shitty and we all must deal with the shit pile it leaves on our front door step! 

Still Sick & Heartbroken

Went to my doctor today. I have a kidney infection and because of the pain as well as the detection of bilirubin in my urine, I have to get an ultrasound of my gallbladder on Wednesday. I am not a happy camper. I still feel nauseous and I am still puking and in pain. Still feeling weak and tired as well. At least now I know what is wrong.

That is just the half of it. Not only have I been really ill, but my boyfriend hasn't spoken to me since Saturday when I gave him a hug and told him goodbye. What kind of shit is that? I will tell you what kind, the chicken shit kind! He should have been a man about wanting to break up. For Christ's sake I am a big girl and afterall, I am overly used to rejection! He left me when I needed him most. I just don't understand. It's time to move on once again. He could have told me what was bothering him. NO he had to wait until I get sick to dump me.

He has known from the start that I have diabetes with kidney and neurological complications. He chose to still keep dating me. If this was going to be a problem then he should have spoke up. He is one of those types that doesn't believe in medication or doing what one has to do to save themselves from a young death. I am sorry but I am a fighter! If I need a special diet and meds to live then by the stars above I will do what my doctor says!!!! I want to live to see many things, including some grandchildren. I am a good person with a huge heart and its such a shame that the men I have dated cannot see it. Someday.....

Impending Doom...

....Has arrived. I knew something horrible was awaiting. Fate is cruel. Melvin hasn't spoken to me all day. No text or call. I knew I was going to be heartbroken again it was just a matter of time. I just can't take anymore stress. I don't know what to do. I always feel like I'm never good enough. Nothing goes right for me.

Matchbox Twenty- North- New CD

I LOVE this CD! Mellow sounds mixed with faster paced songs. The CD is a must have for all Matchbox Twenty fans. All the songs are good! My favorite song on the CD is "Overyjoyed", an upbeat type of love song. Another good track is "Like Sugar." If you are a fan, do yourself, and Matchbox Twenty, a favor, buy it! xD I highly recommend this CD for fans of Alternative rock music.

Hurt Feelings...

Well, if you guys have been reading my blog, then you know I have taken ill. I am STILL throwing up, nauseous, and still in a lot of back pain. I went to my boyfriend's this weekend and it was a fairly nice weekend. I came back home last night and still felt like shit. I slept most of the day today because I am STILL sick. I am still taking Phenegren and Vicodin to help with the vomiting and pain. My boyfriend hasn't sent ONE text or made ONE phone call to see if I feel ok. I don't get that? I sent him a text and go NO answer. Made TWO calls and went to voice mail. Will someone tell me WTF did I do wrong!!! I just want to feel better and not be ignored by my supposed significant other. I just hope for his sake he forgot his phone at home. I won't wait up all night for a phone call. This is really hurting my feelings. I also got my feelings hurt Friday night at dinner. All I can say is WTF?

ER Visit

I spent a few hours at the hospital tonight. I went by ambulance because I was feeling so sick and weak that I could barely move off the bed. I have been feeling sick on and off for awhile. I had blood drawn, urinalysis, and a CT scan on my kidneys because I have beginning stage nephropathy thanks to damn diabetes! Everything came back ok. Problem: I feel sick as hell and cannot find the cause. The ER focused on back pain. They didn't do anything to check for gallbladder disease. I guess tomorrow I am going to call my primary doc and talk to her. This is going on for too long! I am always nauseous. Drives me effing nuts. There has to be a medical reason for the fatigue and chronic general ill feeling. I like how I was puking in my room in a bucket and teared with pain and no one bothered to help. I couldn't find the nurse call button!!! I finally got another dose of Zofran and some Morphine for pain. I got sent home with a script for Phenegren for nausea and Vicodin for the pain. The Morphine has me wide awake! Ohhhh and how about the doctor ordered a damn chest x-ray when I came in with flank pain! All I can say about this entire hospital fiasco is WTF! 

Child Support

Well, well, well no surprise here! Once again my child support payment is late. Probably done out of spite because my ex knows I have a boyfriend now. Pretty shameful huh? Men you need to take care of your responsibilities! On time!!

Finances

Well everything fell into place today and I'm happy for it xD. I've been feeling this impending doom about to wreck my life for the past two weeks. But now that feeling has eased up. Light bill of $195 is paid and I can pay back money I borrowed to fix my car. That's Another good thing! I did get my car back yesterday. Three weeks no car = Carol goes bat shit crazy!  So things will be good for a few months now. I can focus on school and getting a job. Who knows, maybe that impending doom is something else?

Something completely random,  I found my Garbage Pail Kids sticker online lol.

Friends

People who call when they only want something aren't friends! Remember this!

Michigan vs. Alabama Game 9-1-12

OK so its like this. I am SICK TO DEATH of the trash talking not just to me, but around the internet of how bad Alabama is going to be Michigan. Michigan is a GREAT team and school. While I do understand how good of a team Alabama is, I do deserve some effing respect on my Facebook for MY team. I am NOT going on your damn page and telling you bad Alabama sucks. Keep your negative bullshit to yourself. 

I am STILL going to cheer on my team no matter the loss or the win. I am really hoping for a win so the arrogant Bama fans would shut the hell up. Going back in time, remember when those Wolverines beat Florida not once but twice? Well, there was a lot of shit talk against Michigan then too. But now who shut the fuck up? Michigan has been known to be unranked to pull off an upset om a high ranked team! 

Lesson here: Before you start to severely disrespect a team, you might better think twice. I am NOT slamming Alabama, I respect their and their players and how good of a team they are. True football fans don't talk so much shit, but show that respect for other great teams. Michigan has 9 National Championships and in 1997 won their last National Championship with an UNDEFEATED season. Stop the shit talk and let's just fucking get along. 

So come game day keep this in mind: IF YOU START SHIT ON MY FACEBOOK OR BLOG I WILL DELETE YOUR DISRESPECTFUL ASS! I LOVE MY TEAM AND ALWAYS WILL <3

Shitty Day...As Usual...

Today is just a really shitty day! I thought I was going to have my car back today. I have a really good mechanic. But does it really take more than a week to get a motor in a car? I have been three weeks without a car. My boyfriend is wonderful enough to come from Orlando to spend Friday and Saturday with me, but damn I want to go to Orlando! To me, its just not fair that he has to make all these trips when he is working nights 6p-6. six days a week! 

Not to mention that, but having to snag a ride to go to the doctor, to get some groceries, to get stuff for the dogs, its all just a pain in the ass. I can't get out of the house to go to the park or anything. Took a ride to Orlando with my neice to take her son to the doctor. I am just feeling EXTEMELY angry today. Today isn't the day to piss me off. 

Pissed Off

Life is just being a pain in my ass right now. Seems like EVERY little thing is pissing me off. *SIGH*

Feeling sick....again...

Well, after feeling better for months, the sick feeling has returned. I know its from eating too much protein and it has affected my kidneys. I hope this time it doesn't last for over a month. Its a horrible feeling to feel nauseous from the time you wake up until the time you go to bed. If I eat I puke. Ugh. Time to get back on the super strict no meat, no dairy diet. I have diabetic nephropathy and its hard to live with, Guess I will find out more with my next set of lab results in October.