Kidney Disease & Animal Protein

So, some of family friends do not understand why I have to eat a vegan diet. People with KD (kidney disease) must avoid animal proteins because these proteins cause rapid progression of KD. My KD is in remission thanks to the vegan diet and a drug called Losartan. Here is an article from Livestrong that explains how animal proteins damage the kidneys and why vegetable proteins are good proteins :) I am now only allowed 36 grams of protein a day because of my body weight. That is less than 1/4 what everyday people without KD are allowed to have. Now you see why this diet is so important to me. I would like to go without a transplant for at least 25 years!

When I started my vegan diet almost a year ago I weighed approximately 140 lbs, now I weight 109. Since I have been vegan, I feel better, have less fatigue, and my blood glucose levels are almost 90% in range. I have been diagnosed with type II diabetes for 9 1/2 years. Because I have kidney disease and diabetic neuropathy, my doctor estimates that I have been diabetic since I was pregnant with my first child, 18 years. Two months ago, for the first time in nearly two years, I had normal blood and urine tests across the board! My kidney disease is not in remission or has been reversed. I was VERY lucky that my doctor caught my KD in stage 1. It is called microalbuminuria.

If you have KD it is VERY important to eat vegan as much as possible. Animal proteins wreak hell on your kidneys and can cause the disease to progress rapidly. I am hoping this blog reaches and helps at least one person with diabetes KD. Helping the life of one person would mean the world to me. Please take 10 minutes of your time, just 10 minutes out of your lifespan, and read over this article. It might save your life, and at the least, prolong the life of your kidneys.

http://www.livestrong.com/article/281366-vegetable-protein-and-kidney-function/#page=1

Turning 40

In 5 weeks I will be 40. Its depressing because all my friends have partners or are married. I've been pretty much single, seeing someone for 6-8 weeks and breaking up constitutes being single, for almost 5 years. Being 40 and single feels pathetic to me. I've had my fun and I'm done. I want to live the rest of my life with someone. I'm a realist. I have kidney disease so what if I only have 20-25 years left to live? At least I could share it with someone I love ♥

Having diabetes, neuropathy, and now kidney disease would cause me to worry about being 40. Why you ask? Because my birth father was dead at the age of 44. This was largely in part because he did not take care of his diabetes. He didn't take it seriously. My mom died at 51and she had MS, arteriosclerosis, and was most likely diabetic because of large ulcer sores she would get on her legs & ankles after a cut or insect bite she received.

Now after years of controlled blood sugars and my kidney disease in remission, plus healthy blood and urine tests, I'm confident diabetes won't kill me. The kidney disease will. Its 100% fatal. However, I can prolong death for up to 30 years.

Now I'm just scared of being lonely. The feeling of loneliness is horrible. Just when I think I found Mr. Right, in 2 months he turns in Mr. Wrong. Instead of kissing a frog & turning him into a prince, I'm kissing princes and turning them into frogs!! There's either something wrong with me or them. What the fuck?

I have been blessed with three children who have brought me great joy for almost 21 years. But that's not the same as living my life with a wonderful man. Children grow up and leave home. I want a man who shares hobbies with me and will walk beside me through thick and thin. Someone I can share my dreams with. I don't care about money or the kind of home we live in. I only care about love. Is that too much to ask for?

I can day this about myself. I have high self esteem, almost narcissistic, I believe I'm beautiful on the inside and outside, I feel gorgeous & attractive. I have no problems getting dates. Its just finding the one I'm drawn to, the one I cannot live without and he cannot live without me. I look young for my age and I enjoy the compliments I receive. But when the perfect man come along, faults and all! I have faults, we all do ♥

So Your Life Sucks?

I'm fucking SICK of posts all over Facebook about how people's lives suck! You don't know what sucks is!! Here's a sucky fucking life....

1. BOTH of my parents are dead.
2. I was physically abused for 9 years and can't sleep. Mentally abused for about 12.
3. I have diabetes.
4. I have diabetic neuropathy.
5. I have diabetic kidney disease.
6. I have to eat vegan for medical reasons.
7. I was badly sick and in severe pain for 5-6 weeks because of my gallbladder.
8. I had my gallbladder removed now my digestive system acts up.
9. My 13 year old daughter is lactose intolerant and might have Celiac disease. She has to eat a lactose free AND gluten free diet. Shit man try grocery shopping for that shit!
10. I jacked my toe up severely. Might need surgery on a tendon if it doesn't heal.
11. I have lesions on my liver that have to be addressed! So I might end up on more meds and need a liver biopsy.

Now you tell me just how bad your life really fucking sucks! Unless you have a death to face or a serious disease, you can fix your sucky ass life and go to Hell!

Shitty Week....

Well this has been one shitty week. I just *sigh*. I have been sick for two weeks now. Two trips to the ER and one to my doctor in the last week! I have been in such horrendous pain with nausea and vomiting. This is apparently caused from gallbladder spasms. Even with all the pain and puking, the ER doc didn't find it necessary to remove my gallbladder. I am SICK of being sick! I can't stay awake because when the nausea comes on I have to take Phenegren that was prescribed. This stops the vomiting but I still feel queasy. At least they did prescribe Vicodin for the pain. I only take that when I REALLY need it. I will call my doctor tomorrow and get in to see her again. Maybe she can refer me to a gastro doctor that will help with my gallbladder. 

The other thing that's been going on this week is that my boyfriend dumped me straight out of the blue. I didn't even see it coming. Is he really that mean of a person? I guess so. He just flat out didn't return phone calls or texts for like 2 days. I am such a good person so I don't know what happened. I am walking around with a WTF look on my face for a week now. I sent him a Facebook message to wish him a happy birthday and I didn't even get a thank you back. WTF did I do that was so wrong he can't tell me? One major thing we don't disagree on is children. I am 39 years old and have three kids already. They are 19, 16, and 13. I have been raising kids for almost 20 years. And with my medical problems, it would not be a good thing to have another one. Put the medical problems aside, what about my education? I am now in a masters program for psychology specializing in health psychology, a child would make that graduation in 1 1/2 years nearly impossible. And I told him the night we met that I did not and would not have any more children. He seemed ok with that when we met. I also think the reason he split is because I have been so sick. He is a person that doesn't believe in the use of medications. But I cannot help it! I have diabetes, kidney disease, and neuropathy. So no meds is not working for me. 

So I think I am just going to stay single forever. They say there is someone for everyone but I have yet to find that someone in 20 years! In almost 40 I still cannot figure out the meaning of life/ For me the meaning is just paying bills and barely scraping by, and doing it all by myself. I think I am a STRONG woman to have to deal with what life has given me all by myself! NO one is going to take care or help me but ME. Long story short, depend on no one but yourself. Life is shitty and we all must deal with the shit pile it leaves on our front door step!