Still Sick & Heartbroken

Went to my doctor today. I have a kidney infection and because of the pain as well as the detection of bilirubin in my urine, I have to get an ultrasound of my gallbladder on Wednesday. I am not a happy camper. I still feel nauseous and I am still puking and in pain. Still feeling weak and tired as well. At least now I know what is wrong.

That is just the half of it. Not only have I been really ill, but my boyfriend hasn't spoken to me since Saturday when I gave him a hug and told him goodbye. What kind of shit is that? I will tell you what kind, the chicken shit kind! He should have been a man about wanting to break up. For Christ's sake I am a big girl and afterall, I am overly used to rejection! He left me when I needed him most. I just don't understand. It's time to move on once again. He could have told me what was bothering him. NO he had to wait until I get sick to dump me.

He has known from the start that I have diabetes with kidney and neurological complications. He chose to still keep dating me. If this was going to be a problem then he should have spoke up. He is one of those types that doesn't believe in medication or doing what one has to do to save themselves from a young death. I am sorry but I am a fighter! If I need a special diet and meds to live then by the stars above I will do what my doctor says!!!! I want to live to see many things, including some grandchildren. I am a good person with a huge heart and its such a shame that the men I have dated cannot see it. Someday.....

Impending Doom...

....Has arrived. I knew something horrible was awaiting. Fate is cruel. Melvin hasn't spoken to me all day. No text or call. I knew I was going to be heartbroken again it was just a matter of time. I just can't take anymore stress. I don't know what to do. I always feel like I'm never good enough. Nothing goes right for me.

Matchbox Twenty- North- New CD

I LOVE this CD! Mellow sounds mixed with faster paced songs. The CD is a must have for all Matchbox Twenty fans. All the songs are good! My favorite song on the CD is "Overyjoyed", an upbeat type of love song. Another good track is "Like Sugar." If you are a fan, do yourself, and Matchbox Twenty, a favor, buy it! xD I highly recommend this CD for fans of Alternative rock music.

Hurt Feelings...

Well, if you guys have been reading my blog, then you know I have taken ill. I am STILL throwing up, nauseous, and still in a lot of back pain. I went to my boyfriend's this weekend and it was a fairly nice weekend. I came back home last night and still felt like shit. I slept most of the day today because I am STILL sick. I am still taking Phenegren and Vicodin to help with the vomiting and pain. My boyfriend hasn't sent ONE text or made ONE phone call to see if I feel ok. I don't get that? I sent him a text and go NO answer. Made TWO calls and went to voice mail. Will someone tell me WTF did I do wrong!!! I just want to feel better and not be ignored by my supposed significant other. I just hope for his sake he forgot his phone at home. I won't wait up all night for a phone call. This is really hurting my feelings. I also got my feelings hurt Friday night at dinner. All I can say is WTF?

ER Visit

I spent a few hours at the hospital tonight. I went by ambulance because I was feeling so sick and weak that I could barely move off the bed. I have been feeling sick on and off for awhile. I had blood drawn, urinalysis, and a CT scan on my kidneys because I have beginning stage nephropathy thanks to damn diabetes! Everything came back ok. Problem: I feel sick as hell and cannot find the cause. The ER focused on back pain. They didn't do anything to check for gallbladder disease. I guess tomorrow I am going to call my primary doc and talk to her. This is going on for too long! I am always nauseous. Drives me effing nuts. There has to be a medical reason for the fatigue and chronic general ill feeling. I like how I was puking in my room in a bucket and teared with pain and no one bothered to help. I couldn't find the nurse call button!!! I finally got another dose of Zofran and some Morphine for pain. I got sent home with a script for Phenegren for nausea and Vicodin for the pain. The Morphine has me wide awake! Ohhhh and how about the doctor ordered a damn chest x-ray when I came in with flank pain! All I can say about this entire hospital fiasco is WTF! 

Child Support

Well, well, well no surprise here! Once again my child support payment is late. Probably done out of spite because my ex knows I have a boyfriend now. Pretty shameful huh? Men you need to take care of your responsibilities! On time!!

Finances

Well everything fell into place today and I'm happy for it xD. I've been feeling this impending doom about to wreck my life for the past two weeks. But now that feeling has eased up. Light bill of $195 is paid and I can pay back money I borrowed to fix my car. That's Another good thing! I did get my car back yesterday. Three weeks no car = Carol goes bat shit crazy!  So things will be good for a few months now. I can focus on school and getting a job. Who knows, maybe that impending doom is something else?

Something completely random,  I found my Garbage Pail Kids sticker online lol.